Here's the exit, exit, exit.

For some reason i'm in the best mood i've been in for ages and i have absolutely no reason why, not that i'm complaining or anything. It's rather noiceee being in this mood for once, it makes a change.

And had a lovely time at Cara's party on Saturday Night, might have drunk slightly more than i should have and felt it the next day, but loved spending it with the girls and boys that are special to me.  :)

Everyone's starting to get their christmas card's out and sending them to everyone, so tonight i took some hours out of facebook & blogging too write a few cards, i think i may have wrote more in all 7 cards than i did in my english exam this morning. Really in the mood for some christmas tunes, christmas cards and maybe some presents? mmm might just get some tunes on in a bit after this.

It's a little bit funny. This feeling inside.

And we all put on fake smiles to show everyone that were fine and that nothing can hurt us, even when were at our weakest and feel like we can't get much lower. To show were hurting is to let the person that hurt us in the first place feel like they've won, to make them feel like we've given in already. And I for one won't show you that I'm really hurting inside, I won't show you that you've won. I'll keep that fake smile just for you, just to show you that I'm better than all this, it'll be plastered on my face for a while to come yet, but it's the only way I can carry on without showing that It's killing me inside.

How wonderful life is. Now you're in the world.

I may not be perfect, I may not be everything that you wanted.I may different from everyone else, but everyone told me different was Good! Please don't mess with my heart, I don't want it hurt any more. I thought this time it would be different, but most of you are the same. They say that everything happens for a reason...

My fairytale.

Nobody get's what they want these days, and maybe one day I'll realise that. But for the moment, I want to carry on living in my fairytale. It's a pretty fly place.

Change?

Everything seems like it's going so well, and then you wake up and realise that it was all maybe just a dream? Maybe everything isn't as crystal clear and perfect as it seemed. Things change, people change, I guess we've all got to change in the end, whether we like it or not.